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Confident, maybe? Getting there...

Here lately, I feel like I have been finding my confidence.  Some people tell me I never lost it, but instead it was just hidden deep down inside.  For the first time in years, I am buying sundresses and cute shoes.  I told a really good friend of mine that I finally felt like I could step up my wardrobe game because I didn't feel like I need to hide anymore.  On the other hand, she still gets on to me because she feels like even though I am not hiding in my clothes anymore, I am still hiding in other ways.  

For those of you who do not know, I am an only child.  For that reason (some may call it an excuse) I have come up with ways to protect myself.  However, those same ways that I protect myself have also been ways for me to keep hiding myself.  I'll just get straight to the point with this one - she gets on to me about having a fear of love (which will be called evol from this point on when referring to relationships).  

Evol has not been good to me and I think a small part o…

33 months and counting...

There is already a disclaimer about content before you can even enter this blog, but I feel compelled to give one of my own.  This is NOT going to be rated G.  I doubt if I should even call it PG.  I am going to give it the rating of ME because that is what is getting ready to happen - you are going to see me at my most honest form.  I'm afraid to write this.  Quite frankly, I don't know if I should even post it for public viewing, but the fact of the matter is that I've waited a long time to be this open with you and now that I have the nerve, I'm just going to let it be.  Please remember, this is my journey and it is not going to match yours.  In other words, if you decide to comment, play nice.  So, if you don't think this is for you, you might want to turn back now.  However, if you are ready to see another part of my life, continue reading.  Here goes...

The Goddess hasn't been touched in about 3 years.  The only person who has been down there has been a do…

Baggage is to weight as weight is to ______________

I woke up this morning to learn that being obese is considered to be a disease now.  Well, since I still need time for that to sink in, I will talk about that later.  However, as I went on through my day, that new fact didn't annoy me.  In fact, it made me kind of sad.  I felt like, once again, we plus size beauties were being lumped (no pun intended) into yet another category that probably doesn't even begin to tell you our stories.  

Take me for example.  I have my own story.  If you haven't had the opportunity, take this moment to go read Body Prison (http://theplusdiaries.blogspot.com/2013/06/body-prison.html).  Body Prison gives you my full story, up until this time last year.  I'm working on a new story now.  This blog will be waiting for you to get back.  
Great - you're back.  Well, if you didn't go read it, make sure you do at the end of this post.  
The one thing you see from Body Prison is the broad story of my life.  What you did not see is one of the …

Body Prison

I'm not sure if you know this, but I have been doing this writing thing for a few years now.  Well, last year, I was having a really low moment and the only way I knew to express myself was to write it down.  I thought it belonged in a journal, but the more I thought about it, it was evident that it was a story that needed to be shared.  This post I am sharing with you tonight is coming from a different blog that I also write in.  I wrote it to get some things off my chest, but I also wrote it hoping to inspire someone to change their thoughts about themselves.  I don't know, I guess I also wrote it to help some guy see that plus-size women have a heart too.  Why am I sharing with you?  Well, my goal is to be able to share another one of these in the next year because I want to see how my perspective about myself has changed.  I wrote in a more recent post that I still struggle with some things, but I think the post I am getting ready to share with you showed it from top to bo…

Battle of the Mirror

As you get to know me, if you don't already, you will discover that I have the most random conversations with people.  I cannot help it.  I love to talk to people, when I feel like being bothered.  Now there are some days where I am just like please leave me be and then there are those days that you wish I would shut up.  Well, I have discovered that I learn a lot from some from some of the random conversations.  I learn about the other person, but then there are some times when I learn about myself - more than I wish to admit actually.  So, let me take you on a journey about a conversation I had a few weeks ago.  Also, I have more guy friends then girl friends, so don't be surprised when I tell you this conversation happened with me and a male.  
I have a guy friend and I will be the first to admit that we have a weird relationship.  Why?  Well, that is an entirely different blog in itself.  However, we are on a different level with each other and I am comfortable with that.  …

Summer Summer Summertime!

Ok, divas, summer is almost here and if you live in the south (like me), it is safe to say it has already arrived.  Summer is known for showing off those fabulous tan lines and whatever else you wish to share with the world.  However, to my plus divas, it is important that we dress appropriately and wear things that flatter our beautiful, thick bodies.  

I'm sure we have all heard this, but yes, round is also a shape.  However, that does not mean that you can wear everything that you see in the magazines and on other people.  For those people that really know me, they know I will say quickly that everything that looks good on a page or in a store window will not look good on my body!  If you were honest with yourself, the same would be true for you.  

Now, I'm not going to slam anybody because I don't know your financial situation towards your clothes and you also have another opinion than mine.  However, what I am going to say is that I saw an outfit today that should have …