Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Nothing to hide

I know that God is working with me because someone sent me a message tonight that could have caused me to explode.  I said my peace, but I didn't cuss.  I just said what I needed to say and left it at that.  But, here is what this person does not know about me - I love to write.  I write about things that happen to me, so of course I would use this person as a topic for tonight.  

I don't know if you have noticed it on twitter (follow me using the link on the right hand side), but I had a moment of posting some photos that I had during a recent shoot.  I am proud of those photos and it took me a long time to get to a place where I would even think about sharing myself with the world like that.  No one knows my struggle with being plus-size and each one of us struggles with it differently.  So for someone, who doesn't know me at all, to come at me in such a stupid fashion, yeah, it got to me.  Did it hurt my feelings?  Yep, briefly.  I don't know if this person was trying to bring me down, but they only made my drive and determination stronger and for that, they get a huge THANK YOU! 

This is the message that I got tonight from a photographer:  "Don't take this the wrong way, but 5ft4in and (he mentioned what weight he thought I was here)?! U want to be a role model to women. Have u thought about losing weight and getting in shape? It would help young women realize that they don't have to continue to be obese. Let girls know that they have options/ they can improve their lives and their health."

This was my response: "Since you don't want me to take this the wrong way, don't take this the wrong way.  You know nothing about me.  You don't know my current weight.  You don't know how much weight I have lost nor do you know or understand the struggle.  I work out and changed my diet so I could show young ladies they don't have to go under the knife and do a life threatening surgery to be fit.  So, if you would, please stay out of my business and unless you wish to encourage or find someway in your narrow mind to motivate me, stay off my page.  Appreciate it."

All things considering, I think I did pretty well.  For those of you that knew me a few years ago, that response would not have been as nice.  I don't know if he was trying to be encouraging because I saw nothing encouraging.  The really sad part is that from his portfolio, he is an awesome photographer, but I don't know if I could ever bring myself to work with him.  

The fact of the matter is that I have worked a long time trying to get comfortable with me.  Not just my weight, but my life in general.  It has taken me a while to be in this state of peace and I know that was nothing but God.  

But my amazing photographer Casey Brannon (@CaseyBrannon or on facebook at https://www.facebook.com/pages/Casey-Brannon-Photography/447540855021) has taken some awesome photos of me and I am getting ready to share them with you now.  Well, just a sneak peak.  







 You are more than welcome to give me your opinion about these photos, but remember to be nice.  I have worked hard to build a community here and I want to keep it like that.  Don't worry, I will be posting more in a later blog.  In fact, you might even see them somewhere else.  But if you are looking for awesome photos and want to spend a few hours with a wonderful photographer, contact Casey Brannon in Myrtle Beach, SC.  



As for the other photographer that left me that wonderful message (yes, I can be a little bit sarcastic), I hope he finds all he is looking for in life and figures out another way to spread his word on being "unhealthy".  Until you know me, don't judge me.  Want to know my story?  Just ask.  



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