Saturday, April 30, 2016

Sugar Me!

A little over a year ago, I tried something new.  I had never had the goddess waxed.  I had heard too many horror stories.  Then, after some madness, I decided to never shave again.  I think I've given you just enough background, but if not, check out the post concerning my first experience right here.

Now that we have cleared that up, let's continue.  Yesterday, it was time for me to go and get sugared.  Just in case you were wondering, I make an appointment every 5 to 6 weeks!  Seriously, I'm on text terms with my sugar specialist.  If she's running late, she'll text me.  If I'm running late, I'll text her.  If she needs to bump my appointment, she will let me know.  We are just cool like that.  

It is hard to believe that in January of 2015, I was having my first sugaring experience.  About 15 months ago, I was terrified of what my experience would be like - not because of the pain, but because of what I thought they people would say about my body.  However, in our conversations, I learned something.  

In all that we do, we pay attention to certain things.  Since my day job is an engineer, I pay attention to things normal people would not pay attention to - how things are made, the materials used, the location of catch know, things like that.  Well, for my sugar specialist, she looks at the entire body all day.  She sugars from head to toe.  To my shock, she is highly observant of all her clients.  

During my visit yesterday, she was taking care of me down there and I noticed that she didn't have to ask me to hold my tummy.  She can tell that I've lost weight because apparently we look different down there the more weight we lose.  Honestly, I grabbed my tummy just out of habit, but not because she asked.  It felt good to go and enjoy my hair removal treatment (yep, got my brows shaped too) and not have to worry about my body.  Even though she has always been a top notch professional, there has always been a certain insecurity I've had to overcome.  Funny part, even after she was done down there, I didn't even worry about pulling my shirt down to cover my tummy.  Usually, that is the first thing to happen when she starts working on my brows, but yesterday, I was just too comfortable.  Don't worry, I eventually pulled down my shirt.  

Here's the thing, I'm starting to get a better sense of my body.  It's not ugly.  It's not horrible.  It's mine!  It's not perfect, but apparently it is perfect for me.  Have I been working to get into a smaller size and make a lifestyle change?  Yes!  Genetically, there are too many factors that could lead to serious health issues.  I cannot control my genes, but I can control what goes into my system.  I have to take care of myself and I intend to do so.  

I eat fruits and veggies on a daily basis.  Salad is my lunch during the work week.  Meat and bread only happens one or two days a week.  Water, green tea, cranberry juice, and orange juice are my main drinks!  Just trying to do better.  Maybe next time, I won't even subconsciously lift my tummy when the goddess is getting groomed.   

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Four Facts Tag

I'm sort of excited to be part of this tag!  This will be a first for me and I love trying new things.  The fabulous Theo Person from the Wallflower Kronicles tagged me and I was more than ready to accept the challenge.  I've looked through a few posts of people who have already done this and I cannot wait to share with you in my own unique way.  

I will actually be sharing seven distinct things and under those distinct things, there will be 4 of my favorites of that particular item.  I guess you are actually going to learn 28 things about me, but I think this adds to the twist.  Why seven?  Well, I guess I can give you that answer for free - 7 is the number of completion.  That just means a little something to me, even though it is not my favorite number.  I cannot wait to tag some other bloggers so that we can learn a little bit more about them.  However, let me get to the reason you are learn a little bit more about me!  

There is absolutely no particular order, other than how they came to mind.  Just telling you so you won't be trying to figure out the riddle or something like that.  

4 Weird / Fun Facts about me
1 - I was a cheerleader in high school.  I know you find that hard to believe, but it is true.  
2 - I am short.  There is debate about how tall I actually am.  The last time I was measured, I was just under 5'4", however my love is set on the fact that I'm actually 5'2".  Guess when I make another trip to the doctor, I will ask to see how tall (or short) I really am.  
3 - My day job is a civil engineer.  I design roadways for a living and absolutely love it.  Getting it on paper and then seeing it actually happen, even if it is a few years later, is pretty amazing.
4 - I have social and test anxiety.  I've recently been put back on medication to help deal with this and I am better.  I have learned some coping mechanisms to eventually handle this without medication, but right now, my chill pill is a great friend!  

4 Hobbies
1 - I love to write.  You have probably guessed this by now, but I thought it was worth mentioning.  This isn't the only blog that I own, but this is the most public.  I have countless journals (those are top secret), but blogging seems to really be my thing.  
2 - I love to crochet.  Yes, I know that sounds weird.  My grandma taught me and I put it down when she passed away when I was 12.  A few years ago, I decided to pick it back up and now I have found something really rewarding.  Let me stop this right here before I spill what I'm working on.  
3 - I'm a photo junkie and I enjoy taking photos making scrapbooks.  They are wonderful ways to hold memories and to share stories with other people.  
4 - I like to make custom pieces.  I make jewelry (even though my mom is the main jewelry maker).  When I make jewelry, I make it for me and me only.  Just a great way for me to know I'm the only one wearing it.  Besides, my mom says my pieces are different.  I love being unique and it shows in my jewelry.  I also make headbands.  I used to have an Etsy site, but I stopped it to focus on other things.  

4 Favorite Songs
1 - "Diamonds and Pearls" by Prince!  No, I am not saying this because he recently passed away.  I'm saying this because I absolutely love this song!!!  I love lyrics.  If you just listen to the words of this song, it's so perfect and powerful.  I may not be able to give you a lavish lifestyle or be perfect, "but all I can do is just offer you my love".  What is more beautiful? 

2 - "Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson.  First of all, she is the American Idol and she is awesome.  However, this song is literally the story of my life.  I grew up in a small town and I literally could not wait to breakaway and get the chance to be my own person, not the expectation of the small town.  

3 - "Man In The Mirror" by Michael Jackson.  I want to leave this world in a little bit better shape than it was when I joined it.  That's not going to happen by me having ideas and running to people to get them off the ground.  It happens with me looking at myself, deciding to do something about the world I live in, and making a positive change.  

4 - "I Lived" by One Republic.  When I do take my last breath, I want people to say she lived an amazing life.  It's a wonderful song that tells an amazing story.  I want my story to be amazing and each day, I add another page to my book.

4 Favorite States
1 - No matter the madness happening up there right now, North Carolina is on this list!  It's where I grew up.  It's where I became the writer I am today.  Even though my permanent address is no longer there, at the end of the day, it is still home.  

2 - I love Virginia.  We've vacationed up there so many times and at so many places.  It's a beautiful place and either of the resorts we stay at are amazing.  It's a short drive to get to the beach, shopping, and any sights I want to go to!  I know that say the state is for lovers, but I love going there to rejuvenate.  

3 - Oregon was an awesome place.  I had a job interview out there and I decided to turn it into a vacation.  I saw as much as I could, even though the weather did not want to cooperate.  The one thing I did notice while out there was the people!  They were so friendly and helped me navigate a strange place.  I think I could have lived out there, but the job didn't come through.

4 - Florida?  What can I say!  I love the beach.  I love Disney.  I love Universal Studios!  Even though it has been under construction forever, I love driving on I-4.  I love Orlando.  I love International Drive.  Plus, I do have some family there and it is always good to see them.  

4 Favorite Movies
1 - Armageddon.  It came out in the late 90s, but it is my jam.  When it first came out on Netflix, I watched it every single day when I got in from work.  Since I've already written about my love for Armageddon in another post, I'll just end this right here.

2 - We Are Marshall.  Yes, I love football so of course I would love a football movie.  I love the story it tells of never giving up.  An entire town was hurting and they were able to pull it together.  I know the movie added extra stuff to fill the time, but from the things I read about the time it happened, those were rough days.  Those were rough years.  Not just for the football program, but for the people trying to put their lives back together.  

3 - Center Stage.  I really don't know how to even explain this one to you, but I just know I love the movie.  I'm in no way, shape, or form a dancer and I definitely never took ballet, but for some reason, I was drawn into that movie!  Maybe it was the drama and seeing all the madness that it takes to really achieve a goal, but it was really good to me.  I know, it's weird, but it is one of my favs.  

4 - Kingdom Come.  I finally found this in the 5 dollar bin at Walmart and I had to have it.  It's a comedy that centers around a funeral.  However, my absolute favorite part is that you can pick out your family members within the movie and get a good laugh.  

4 Favorite Foods
1 - Pizza! I love pizza!  I can eat pizza all 3 meals of the day.  I can eat it cold, but I prefer it hot.  I like pizza rolls.  I like pizza pasta.  I just like pizza.  I have Pizza Hut from various towns in my phone and if I get the urge, I will call them!  In fact, one of the places got to know me so well that they already knew my order when I called.  

2 - I like sushi.  I just started eating it about 3 years ago, but I'm cool with it!  I'm not a sushi insider or anything like that, but I like what I like.  I even use chopsticks while eating.  I'm getting there.  

3 - My guilty pleasure meal is a Whopper from Burger King.  When I tell my love I want my guilty pleasure food, he knows exactly where to take me.  I like messy burgers and it doesn't get more messy than a Whopper! 

4 - My dad's lasagna!  If it is not my dad's, I'm not eating it.  I'm going to have to get his recipe!  He never made it often anyway and it rarely appears in my parents' house since I moved out 5 years ago.  However, just writing about it makes me want to put in a special order.  When is the next time I'm going to visit them?  LOL

4 Favorite places to shop
1 - I love Old Navy.  They have the absolute best jeans ever.  I have plenty of their shirts too.  I even rock a few of their dresses.  Who am I kidding, almost my entire wardrobe has come from Old Navy.  

2 - I like to shop at Lane Bryant.  I'm a plus diva and my boobs are no different.  Basically, they are the only place I can get bras.  How can I not have them on this list when they keep my girls perfectly lifted and in place?

3 - I talk about clothes a lot, but there is another place I love.  Home Goods is my place!!!  My coworkers got me a gift card to there for my birthday and I was all the way giddy.  Yes, I said giddy.  I can't wait to shop there again, but I need to block out at least an hour.  Not that I'm going to be in there buying stuff for an hour, but because I just want to look around and really enjoy myself.  

4 - This final place is a little gem I just found.  Seriously, I just happened to be walking to a restaurant and decided to drop in with a friend of mine.  Before we went in, I told her I would just look at shoes and jewelry because I knew I wouldn't be able to fit any of the clothes.  This store is Entourage!  Cute clothes, that I couldn't wear.  But, I did walk out of the store with a new pair of shoes.  In fact, I walked out of the store wearing the shoes I had just bought.  I thought that was pretty awesome.  Now, imagine how awesome it was to come home and see they were launching a plus size line?!  I have to order online for now, but I cannot wait to place my first order and write about the experience.  

Well, I hope you have learned a little bit more about me and I hope I haven't bored you too bad with this long post.  However, there is more.  Now it's time for me to share with you who I would like to tag.  Here they are (in no particular order)...

1 - Ruby Wright from GUB Life.
2 - Dani from Beyond the Kurves
3CeCe from Plus Size Princess
4 - Michelle from Love Michelle Ana

Ladies, I hope you had as much fun with this post as I did!  

Sunday, April 24, 2016

4 miles

This past weekend, I took a trip to the beach.  Absolutely had an amazing time and the timing couldn't have been more perfect because the prior two weeks before had been a bit challenging.  Won't go into the details of that madness, but it was rough.  I left Friday afternoon and about five hours later, I arrived at my destination.  

I hadn't been to Atlantic Beach, NC since I was in the seventh grade.  Yep, that's been a long time.  However, I remember it being a really nice beach and I loved how quiet it was.  Other than some new buildings, it was still quiet and I loved it!  

I told my dad that I wanted to go walk on the beach and that is what we did Saturday morning.  Just needed some daddy-daughter time.  Since I'm an only child, I don't particular pull towards one parent.  Sometimes, I only want one of them and other times I want both of them - it truly depends.  That time was interesting because of my decision.  

To most people it was chilly, but to me, the weather was perfectly fine.  I walked out of my bedroom with a bathing suit and a cover-up (well, it wasn't sold as a cover-up, but I made it one).  I proceeded to go out to the patio to put on my sunscreen because I absolutely hate the smell of it (and it tells you to use it in a well-ventilated area).  

I've always been a thick chick and my dad knows that I haven't always embraced that.  He also knows that he and my mom are part of the reason it has been so hard for me.  Now, I'm more confident and wearing a two-piece tankini is not a problem for me anymore.  I think he realized that.  He asked, you're really going to wear a bathing suit?  Are you sure you're not cold?  I told him, no, and on our way we went.  

Now, some of you are probably thinking he really wanted you to change.  Nah, I know my dad.  I know his voices and I could tell he was more concerned for my health because he had heard me have a few coughing fits the night before.  

We get to the beach and no one was out there in a bathing suit.  The guys didn't even have on swim trunks.  Don't get me wrong, it was way too cold to get in the water, but I at least thought more people would be out trying to get a tan (mine is natural - LOL).  The breeze was amazing and a few times, my cover-up flew up, but I was fine with that.  It's my body and I'm fine with that too.  All the way to the pier, people greeted us and we had too much fun in our conversation and looking at the scenery.    

Well, we walk 2 miles to the pier.  We get there and we take a break.  Since we had stopped, we were able to actually talk to a few people.  Just enjoying my bathing suit and one lady walks up to us and starts talking.  She's looking at me and I'm just trying to figure out omg, what is she thinking?  In her cool accent she asked, are you not cold?  All three of us laughed and I told her absolutely not.  My dad and I start on our journey back to the resort.  Another 2 miles of seeing people...

In my entire walk, 

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

The sex files

None of you have ever just came right out and said it, but I think some of you have been waiting on a post about sex.  I know it is a subject a few of my fellow bloggers touch on.  Honestly, I love how open they are about the subject and how comfortable they seem with the subject.  Maybe that's the word I've been looking for...comfortable.  

It's no secret that my ship has left the virgin island.  If you didn't know that, I just ask you to take a look at some of my posts and check out what I have to say.  However, it's just not something I like to talk about because I'm not comfortable.  Am I comfortable in my sexuality?  Yep.  I know who I am and what I am.  I'll tell you like I told a really good friend of mine - I like bats and balls and I prefer people that have them naturally in the same place.  That made him laugh, but it also made him realize that I'm just myself and I'm going to say what's on my mind.  But my sexuality isn't the problem. 

My problem is that my sexual past hasn't been that wonderful.  It is only in the past few years that I have understood what it meant to be intimate, without feeling like both of us had to be naked.  Although my sexual past is not the best, I have learned from it.  Are there some things I would wish I could change?  Yes.  Am I ok with the lessons I learned?  Most definitely.  

So, maybe that is what you need to hear from me right now.  Maybe you need to hear my lessons.  Here they go...

1 - Your first time is not going to be great unless it is with the right person.  Yes, I probably should tell you to not have sex until you are married, but I'm going to be realistic.  You may marry the person your first time was with.  Probably won't happen, but it could happen.  

2 - Protect yourself!  This can go a few different ways - protected sex, birth control, and even taking a trip to your doctor to make sure there are no STDs.  Ladies, I advise you to get a yearly exam.  

3 - Sex does NOT equal love.  I could go on about this, but this is something you are going to have to figure out for yourself.  It may take a few years, but trust me, you will learn the lesson.  

4 - Be with someone you can hang out with and not have to worry about having sex.  This is very similar to number 3, but very different.  If you have a person in your life that is perfectly fine with being with you and not trying to be in you all the time, that might be something worth fighting for.  

5 - Learn to love yourself.  If you don't love yourself, you won't respect yourself.  Guys respect you as much as you respect yourself.  

I'm sure I could go on, but I think this is a good stopping point.  Again, just not a topic I'm comfortable with - not because we don't think about it, but because I'm still working through my past issues with it.  Is it getting better as I grow?  YES!!!  I look forward to the day when I can comfortably tell you all the lessons I've learned.  Until then, this post will just have to do.  

Saturday, April 9, 2016

My chill pill

Disclaimer:  Not sure if I have ever touched on this subject before and I really don't want to go back and look through everything I've written.  So, if I have, I'm just going to go a lot deeper and if I haven't, thank goodness I'm starting from the very beginning.  Either way, I hope you enjoy this and I hope that it (in some way) helps! 

For just over a decade (probably a little longer), I've suffered from depression and issues concerning anxiety.  The depression, in my opinion (of the opinion of a medical professional) is doing a lot better.  However, the anxiety, not so much.  

Quite frankly, I think the anxiety caused the depression.  I can remember being in middle school and going to a school dance and not really feeling like being around all my friends.  I sort of hung on the wall.  Then, it flipped in my brain that no one wanted to hang out with me.  That made me feel depressed because the only thing I could think about was I'm a likable person, so why don't they want to be around me?  

Let's fast forward to high school.  I think my high school experience was great.  Don't really have any horror stories to share with you and that is a really wonderful thing.  I was a cheerleader my junior year.  I was involved in activities my first two years.  Senior year, I was really focused on college applications, while still being very sociable and involved on committees.  Honestly, there were a few depressing days, but nothing out of the norm (at least for what teenagers of my generation dealt with).  

Maybe it was college where life hit me in the face.  Let me tell you the first thing I discovered about college - for every 10 people you meet that are awesome, there is that 1 person that knows how to get up under your skin.  Yep, met that person a few times.  Yes, I had a boyfriend that I left in high school (probably literally should have left that relationship too, but that is for another post).  Life sort of flipped upside down at home, even though I was away in college.  Here is what I wish someone should have told me before I left high school - no matter how much you study, college is still going to be stressful.  

There is the stress of fitting in.  The stress of figuring out how to get around campus and make it to class on time.  The stress of maintaining a certain GPA because you have scholarship money.  The stress of working 3 part time jobs while trying to finish a major and a minor (would have been 2 minors, but I had to drop one because I wouldn't finish my classes on time for the time I wanted to graduate).  There are others, but I will just make the assumption that you get the point.  

I guess you can see how anxiety took over my life.  I found myself having anxiety concerning my friends and if they really liked me or if they were just going to go away (luckily, they haven't).  I had anxiety about classes and taking tests.  I had to keep my quiz grades and homework grades up because on test days, I just couldn't do my absolute best - at least not what I wanted to do in some classes.  It wasn't until a professor noticed the trend that I took the initiative to talk to someone about my test anxiety.  

Yes, test anxiety.  Absolute madness, right?  Not really.  For me, it was the gateway for us to start figuring out what had been wrong with me all these years.  After getting some professional help, I realized anxiety had damaged my life more than I thought.  I'm not a shy person, but I found myself being alone in a crowded room for many years.  

As I settled into my new normal, I felt like my feet were finally getting on the ground.  The rest of the college years were amazing.  All the while, being monitored by a doctor to make sure I was progressing and not necessarily being healed, but learning how to live with my anxiety and not allowing it to spiral into a depression.  I had a bit of an extended college career (and I'm ok with that), but I did graduate with my degree and minor at a GPA I'm proud of.  Even that year after college I was not working in a field that allowed me to use my degree, I was absolutely fine.  

I got a new job in less than a year after graduation (which during the time I graduated, that was really amazing).  I moved to a new state and I started to get settled into my life.  Work went well and I started climbing the ladder...and then the ladder broke.  

I found myself being really stressed at work.  I just started thinking back to what I had learned in college and just trying to handle the situation the best way I knew how.  Here are the mistakes I made with that logic:
1 - I wasn't in college anymore
2 - My environment had totally changed
3 - I was a different person

The things I had learned just were not working for me anymore and that didn't help my situation.  It took me a while to realize that (ok, a few years in fact), but I got there.  However, during that stressful time, I found myself trying to escape.  

Let's talk about escaping because it has different meanings for me.  I felt like I had to escape work.  Every opportunity I had to get out of the office, I left.  My boss needed an errand ran, I was the person.  Then, when my brain finally could not take it anymore, I tried the ultimate escape.  Yep, that escape plan.  THEN (yes, that needs to be emphasized) I had extra anxiety on top of what I already had because my escape plan didn't work.  If you are not sure what I am referring to, I ask you to listen to The Great Escape by Pink (@Pink).  Fast forward to the following summer, I was able to escape that job.  Here's what really hurt me though - I really loved that job, but for some reason, my anxiety did not let me enjoy it as much as I wanted to.  

So, I'm in the new job and having a blast...and then the bottom fell out.  Like for real, it flooded.  I'm currently a hydraulic engineer and I design drainage systems for roadways and bridges.  Needless to say, it got a little bit busy, but I was able to handle it.  It was the stuff outside of the job that was hurting me.  

Everyone around me was (and still is) getting married and having babies.  Yes, I'm in a relationship, but I'm not getting married or having kids (at least not right now).  It started to really hurt and I can remember not sleeping one night and sending a text to a friend of mine before 7am on a Saturday morning.  To this day, I'm so thankful she answered her text because honestly, I'm not sure how my life would be right now if she didn't.  After she allowed me to have my meltdown, break a plate she no longer wanted, took my to a festival, called someone for reinforcements, let me hangout in her bed for a while, and just talk (some of that is in the order it actually happened), she sent me home, but she kept checking on me.  

Sidebar: If you're dealing with depression and/or anxiety, it is so important to have some strong friends around you.  

Ok, let's get back to it.  January is a hard month for me and this year, it was the absolute worst.  If you need a reference to this, check out my post The Lost Boy.  Really don't want to talk about it again, so that is why I'm referring you to the link.  However, that day, I spiraled out of control and it was very evident that I needed help and it was time for me to get help.  

My pastor talks about his battle with anxiety and I truly respect him for that.  I was going back through some old sermons and he said something that made the most sense.  He said (roughly), we take medicines if we have heart problems or any other physical issues, so why it is so wrong for us to take a medicine for our brains?  Immediately, something in my brain changed about the stigma behind having to be medicated.  

In the African-American community, we do not talk about any form of mental illness.  When we do, we talk about it in a very negative connotation.  Actually, we're not supposed to talk about it because we are crazy or less than a person.  Well, I'm here to hopefully start to break that stigma (at least within my generation).  

In February of this year, I told a really good friend of mine, I'm ready to get back on medication.  I knew that was going to be what helped me and I'm not ashamed of that.  I've been medicated for about 2 months and I can UNASHAMEDLY tell you that I feel fantastic!!!  

I'm happy and I feel like I have a balance that I have not had in a few years.  Have my doctor and I talked about coping and not being medicated one day?  Yes!  But right now, we both agree, medicine is the best thing for me right now.  Here's the kicker, she believes I have social anxiety (yes, still have test anxiety too).  How weird is that for me to love being around people and being in a field that requires me to be around people, but yet I have social anxiety?  It is weird, but I'm dealing with it because it is my truth.  

In the past two months, I've only had one anxiety attack and that is awesome!  Do I sometimes still get a nervous energy around some people?  Yes.  However, I'm ok.  I'm learning how to deal with this version of my new normal and I take steps forward every single day.  

So yes, I literally take a chill pill.  Now, if you're dealing with depression and/or anxiety and don't like that I called it a chill pill, here is what you need to know about me - I really don't care.  Calling it my chill pill is another way I cope because I can find humor, instead of pain, in calling it that.  I'm not ashamed of this battle anymore and quite frankly, it has made me so much stronger.  

If you think you or someone around you is dealing with this, please get some help.  There is help out there.  Life can and will get better.  If they don't want to go alone, offer to go with them.  The most important thing is to be supportive and to be understanding.  It's time to be honest about how and what you are feeling.  That is the only way things are going to change.  

Monday, April 4, 2016

Big body, little store

Over the weekend, I had the absolute best unexpected surprise.  Let me set this up.  I'm a plus size woman.  Hence the name of this blog.  I write about my life and all that comes with it - shopping adventures, when I don't feel pretty, when I've been hurt about my size, stuff like that.  When you see me talk about going to Guess, you know that more than likely, I'm walking out of there with a pair of shoes, a pocketbook, a wallet, or a combo of two or all three.  If you hear me talk about Old Navy, you know I'm about to do some serious damage getting me some fantastic clothes.  That's just how it happens in my life.  

So, on Saturday, I met up with a really good friend of mine to have an early dinner.  I really needed some sushi in my life and that had to happen.  We got to the place early and of course, they were not open.  We decided to go for a walk and check out some of the shops.  So, there was a cute little boutique next to where we were going to eat.  She wanted to stop in.  I knew there was nothing in there clothing wise that I could wear, but I figured that I could go look at some jewelry, shoes, and their other accessories.  

The store was Entourage Clothing and Gifts (@ShopEntourage).  It's no big secret that I feel a little strange walking into a store that I've never been into, but yet it is so obvious they have nothing in my size.  However, the first thing I noticed was how cool the staff was.  They were so helpful and since it was our first time being in the store, they told us about their prices and about a sale they were having.  Cool, right?  Here's another thing that is not a big secret - I have a serious problem when it comes to shoes!  I have so many shoes.  It's just something I love.  As we were looking around, something caught my eye - some beautiful shoes that I had actually been looking for.  This is a skinny store, so I won't be able to find anything, right?

WRONG!!!  After picking around with some of the associates, I finally got the nerve up to ask about the shoe sizes.  They went up to my size and some shoes, larger than my size.  Ok, part 1 complete.  Then, I broke down and asked for my size.  Expecting her to just look me dead in my face and say the shoes I was looking for didn't come in my size, that didn't happen.  She went to the back, looked around, and came back with my shoes!  Yes, I had already claimed them.  Part 2 a success.  Here's something else you should all know by now, my calf muscles are beautiful and should be envied.  That keeps me out of knee high boots that do not come from a plus size store or from a store that don't carry wide shoes.  The moment of truth - time to try on the shows.  My right foot is slightly bigger, so that was the one I went with.  By the way, I didn't even have to take the shoe out of the box because the associate took care of all of that for me.  Got the shoe zipped around my wonderful muscle!!!  Part 3 was a total success.  

My bestie who was shopping with me wanted me to walk around in them, so of course I gave a mini shoe fashion show.  Everybody loved them!  I was told that shoe wasn't as popular, but I absolutely adored them.  You should know what happened next...but, if you don't I'll tell you - I walked out of the store with the shoes on my feet.  

Long story, but to me, it was an awesome story.  I was actually scared to walk in this store and was totally fine with helping my friend shop, but that is not how it turned out.  I took a chance in a place that does not cater to my body, but they definitely catered to my feet (and my wrist size too because I tried on a bracelet too).  It's not a place that I will shop all the time, but it is definitely a place that I will be back too.  

I told the ladies that I was going to give the store a s/o in my blog.  So, to the ladies of the Columbia, SC location of Entourage Clothing and Gifts, thank you so much for a wonderful shopping experience!  I will be back and I cannot wait to shop again.  

Now, we all know they are not paying me for this endorsement, but you can find Entourage Clothing and Gifts by clicking here!  I promise, you will be happy you took the time to look at this site!  If possible, check out a store near you!  As always, happy shopping!